10 November 2007 ; 10:45 PM ♥
SOMEONE PLEASE STAB ME!my dear has been running a fever for about
2 days.
the fever goes on and off.
i'm so
scared something will happen to him.
WHY must god do this to him?
_l_
Today's events:
he went with me to funan in the morning to fix my lappie.afterwhich, we went to toa payoh to play pool.he complained that he was having a headache.i suggested going to his ah ma house for a rest.on the journey there, i could see him suffering.it really broke my heart.why did i ask him out when i knew he was unwell?why did i get angry with him because he broke his promises? [he didn't mean to break them]why was i so fucking selfish?after spending about half the day there, he accompanied me to funan to collect my lappie.he then sent me home.when we were at my house, his fever came back again.i told him to go home to rest but he refused.he said he wanted to accompany me because he might not be able to see me tomorrow.why didn't he spare a thought for himself?why did he only think about me?is that love?why am i so useless?i feel so
worthless.
i'm not worthy of his love.
i'm not worthy of whatever he has done for me.
maybe i should just drop
dead.
i'm just another
burden to him.
9.15 pm
wei: i think i want go Tan Tock Seng see a doctor.
zhu: okay. then you call your mother go with you la.
wei: [calls his mum]
wei: my mother don't want accompany me there. she say she's tired.
zhu: wtf...
i seriously don't understand why his mother is like that?
i saw her a few times and found her quite nice.
i changed my view of her today.
HELLO, your son is sick and you still care whether you are fucking tired anot?
even if my mother was tired like fuck, i bet she would still look after me.
why?
that's because she's a
MOTHER.
as a mother, it's YOUR responsibility to look after your child.
get a life.
okay, she's my senior, so i won't get too rude.
i really can't stand seeing you suffer dear.why is your life so miserable?fuck it.my head is spinning.
i think i'm gonna faint.
._.
zhux3
